Reckless

"I remember every night that we spent on the edge,

The cold warmth and the bitter taste that it left

Young, dumb, carefree and reckless,

But there's some method to the madness"

Losing Teeth // Neck Deep

(Lets just say this weekend I let out a good amount of my aggression using a broken television, a brick, and a fast shutter speed)

The Asylum

So tired, so tired of showing Love so deep
That most aren’t even willing to feel
See what I’ve seen
Open your eyes and recognize that this is real
This season brings darkness so profound
I’ve become lost and can’t seem to be found
Contorted, racked with pain
I know should feel free, yet I continue to sing this sad refrain
I can’t sleep and food has lost its taste
God, I’m so sick of this place

This Loneliness Won't Be The Death Of Me // Being As An Ocean

                      (These are photos of an old abandoned asylum that I visited this weekend)

Ghost

"I spend a lot of time above water. 
In fact, I spend most of my time in my room. 
Lately that's made me wonder 
if I've given up on trying to be someone new. 
Because I don't like who I see, 
each morning when I look in the mirror. 
In fact it's the only thing I fear, 
that I'm empty inside these bones. 
I'm not scared of ghosts, 
I embrace them all as friends, 
because one day I'll be dead, 
and they will know my name. 
So I've been counting down my life, 
existing in hours, 
to see what I have left. 

If I see 25, i'll be surprised. 
If I see 32, I'll take every letter I wrote to you 
and bury them alive. 
If I see 44, well I haven't thought that far." 

Sorority Noise // Nick Kwas Christmas Party

(This is a photo of my friend Jeff. I used a daylight white balance to take this photo. I love this photo and every time I look at it I'm reminded of the song lyrics shown above.)

Shake the Dust

"This? This is for you. Make sure that by the time fisherman returns you are gone. Because just like the days, I burn both ends and every time I write, every time I open my eyes I am cutting out a part of myself to give to you.

So shake the dust and take me with you when you do for none of this has ever been for me. All that pushes and pulls, pushes and pulls for you. So grab this world by its clothespins and shake it out again and again and jump on top and take it for a spin and when you hop off shake it again for this is yours. Make my words worth it, make this not just another poem that I write, not just another poem like just another night that sits heavy above us all. Walk into it, breathe it in, let is crash through the halls of your arms at the millions of years of millions of poets coursing like blood pumping and pushing making you live, shaking the dust.

So when the world knocks at your front door, clutch the knob and open on up, running forward into its widespread greeting arms with your hands before you, fingertips trembling though they may be." 

[Anis Mojgani - Shake the Dust]

(This weekend I visited my best friend after 3 months of her being away at college. I was about 7 hours away from where I originally live but even though I was far, I never felt so at home. I feel as though my hometown has kept me grounded. It's the place where I grew up, but soon I want to break free and find more adventures somewhere else. I have truly realized that I can't stay here forever. One day I will leave the place that is making me feel so grounded and I will finally feel free and at peace with myself. One day I will Shake the Dust.)

Yellow Love

Be mine.
Shake up my love.
Yellow night has had enough.
It's been out way too long.
I see nothing but yellow love.

Be mine.
Pull me in two.
I will mold myself just for you.
The night is vivid for once,
Still I see nothing but yellow love.

All I feel is celestial desire.
A distant joy is dancing all around me. 
All I see is yellow in the spring air.
How beautifully the color worked itself in.

(I took this photo using a daylight white balance. I feel as thought it is a perfect representation of depth of field. When I took this picture it reminded me of one of my favorite songs  "Yellow love" by one of my favorite bands citizen)